Messed Up

Yesterday was supposed to be a good day. I planned out all my food, logged all 3 meals into the tracker, and felt quite good about it. I went to the gym and did my new and harder workout. So what happened in the afternoon was not on the program. I found the candy hearts which were left over from valentine's day and ate them. Then a frosted cookie, also from valentine's day, started to go into my mouth. The rest of it went into the trash. I are dinner, went to school and are two chocolate caramels, which were on the counter. On the way home, I stopped to buy some band-aids and decided to walk down the Easter candy aisle. I do have a weakness for pectin jelly beans, and not finding those, chose premium tiny jelly beans which I ate in the car on the way home. I ate half of the bag.
Today, I put the rest of them down the disposal.
What is the significance of all of this? I was so in control, and so out of control. I know the repercussions of cheating on the program, I also know the results of following the program. I really didn't enjoy those jelly beans very much, but I kept on eating them. Did the candy earlier in the day set me up for more in the late evening? I do want to get off this plateau, but I am helping myself very much by eating candy. So, as my title says, I'm messed up.