Tuesday Update

Things aren't going so well for my Mom. Because of this, they aren't going so well for me. Yesterday, I didn't add any foods to my journal after breakfast, but I did stay on program. Today wasn't as good. I ate way too many butter cookies--the kind in a box, not the rich bakery kind, but not on the program, then I had a sandwich, a chocolate chip cookie, two slices of cheese and two filipino plantain things that were like egg rolls, but probably many more calories. My mother's caregiver brought them for me, so I had to eat them, but probably I should have stopped at one. They were crispy, sweet and good, not not great. Then I washed it all down with a diet pepsi. I am so full now, I almost feel sick. I don't think that I will eat and dinner before I go to Oakton. Maybe I will have a soup. That's all. it's almost 4 o'clock and I have to eat at 5. I know that I won't be hungry by then. I do have to have something, so soup may just do the trick. I will have a snack later when I get home. Tomorrow, I will start over again, just like the first day of the program. This is what taking one day at a time is about.
5 more days until Monday, when it all starts again.

Monday Update

Monday Again, and the program is working. At my meeting today, my weight was down 1.2 pounds. Even though I had 2 days that I didn't journal, I did stay on program.
Today is a cloudy day, maybe rain, the forecast is for falling temperatures. Maybe we have seen the last of summer. My husband and I took a long walk yesterday, saying that we have to enjoy the warm weather since it might be the last nice day of fall. We have said that for the past three weeks. We are so fortunate to be enjoying summer-like weather in the middle of October.
No gym today, I fell down a few stairs a little while ago, and my knee hurts a tiny bit, so I better take it easy for a while. The fall was no big deal.
I have to do my lesson plans, go to see my Mom and try to go out to a nursery that has shrubs for sale for $5-10. It may be a waste of time, but its worth a try.
I'm staying on my day to day program for another week. I'm going to blog everyday if I can. 6 days until next Monday's meeting.

Wednesday Update

Yes, it is Thursday, but I didn't get to blog last night, as I fell asleep watching TV. I stayed on program yesterday, went to the gym, and only ate what I wrote down in the food journal. I also visited my Mom. My friend Linda, who has known my Mom for many years, and is like a family member, came with me. My Mon wasn't doing well. She didn't want to get out of bed, she didn't want to talk and was generally confused. This distresses me, of course. I can't get over how she has gone down in the past few weeks. It is hard for her to have a conversation now, and what she does say is almost ununderstandable. The good part of this is that she isn't in any pain.
Four more days until Monday.

Busy Tuesday

Organization was not my strongest suit this week. I left my school work until today, so I had to do my lesson plan, correct my papers and enter my grades, and get organized for tonight's class this morning. I barely finished, and since I volunteered to drive a friend to a doctor appointment, I was rushed. I did get to visit my mother, but she was sleepy, and didn't have much to say.
I was on program today, but no exercise. It was a good , but busy day.
Class went well too. I really have to break everything down for my students, but some of them are unlocking the techniques of reading. I just hope that they remember to use them.
Tomorrow, I will go to the gym, then work on Thursday's class.
I have 5 more days to go this week.

Monday Again

Happy Monday to everybody. Mine was a sunny one--actually partially cloudy and warmer than the past few days. My plan--go to WW, weigh in, go to the gym, work on my lesson plan, visit with my mother, eat dinner. Everything accomplished except to work on lesson plan. I'll put that off until tomorrow.
My one day at a time plan has started to show results. I was down 2.6 pounds, which to me is excellent progress. I did slip up a bit today--there was a sample bit of cake at Starbucks, my mothers caregiver had some Filipino rice, my husband heated up a small piece of pizza as an appetizer. Other than that, I had a good food day. My gym day went well too.
Yesterday, we went to the movies and saw Michael Clayton, which we enjoyed. Then we went for some dinner to a fairly new restaurant in the area--Billie Burkes, which we also enjoyed. I had a shrimp salad, ate half, and had the rest for lunch today.
So, I'm going to stay with the one day at a time plan again this week. 6 more days until weigh in.

two days to go

The opera was just wonderful. It's been a few years since I saw La Traviata, so seeing it last night was like seeing it for the first time. The music is really great, and all of it is so familiar. I really do miss going to the opera on a regular basis. Actually, the Lyric has a new production of Traviata--new to me, anyway. Also, the script was projected in English over the stage. The singing was very good, especially the tenor. The acting was good for all the major roles. A few observations--I never realized how difficult this opera was for the soprano--she had two huge arias in the first act, one quickly following the other, then a reprise of the 2nd one to end the act. She had to sing leaning on a fainting couch and lying in a bed. This looked difficult to me.
We took the train down to the opera house, and had a small dinner at McDonald's. Since there wasn't much time, I decided to have one of my all time favorites, the double cheeseburger--weighing in at 12 points! It was delicious--and I eat only 2 of these a year. Today showed a little bit of the old me--I ate some chips and a few nuts. I took my mother for her hair appt, and she isn't doing so well. This makes me feel like someone is stepping on my chest. Then I feel like eating. Tomorow is the last day this week before my meeting and weigh in--in other words, one day to go.

Opera Tonight!

Last night I didn't get to blogging, and there are some very good reasons for it. When I got home from Oakton, there was a message from an old friend asking me if I wanted to go the see La Triaviata with her tonight. She had a ticket, and even though it was last minute, I said YES. I am very excited about this, since at one time, long age, she and I had a subscription to the Lyric and saw all the operas. I am also looking forward to seeing her, since we don't get together often enough.
Another reason for no blog was that the smell of homemade pizza met me when I opened the door. My husband made himself a sausage and pepperoni pizza for dinner--which was quite a contrast to my frozen Lean Cuisine. Kindly, he heated up a slice in the oven for me, and was it ever delicious!
Other than that, I stayed on program yesterday, and I carefully booked the points for the pizza. Today, I had personal training, and am a little sore, since I did some new stuff. I was able to do a very advanced variation of the plank pose--at least for second.
My son called with some good news--he just found out that he was given the cello award from the Tanglewood Music Institute. Along with the honor, a check in on its way!

Wednesday--halfway through

Wednesday is the "hump" of the week. I made it through 3 days sucessfully. I subbed at Oakton--DP campus today, it went well, better than Monday.
Fall has arrived for a few days. It's chilly, in the 50's, cloudy, breezy, but not in a good way. The breeze has a bit of a bite in it. My husband refuses to turn on the heat, for the same reason that he didn't turn on the AC a few days ago when it was hot. But, the forecast is for a return to warm days next week.
I went to see my Mom today. She looks beautiful, as usual, but is a little confused. We talked a little and watched Jeopardy. When I got home, I started to eat. I had 3 cookies and a chocolate at her place, then I had some wine, dinner, and then 2 more pieces of chocolate. I did book everything. Comfort eating, I guess.
Tomorrow is the gym. I am ready for it. So, only 4 more days this week.

Day 2 is Over

Tuesday was day 2, and it went quite well. At my WW meeting, I got a plateau guide, I read it carefully, and it gave me a menu for a day on the core program. I didn't follow it exactly, but I gave me some ideas. I have the ingredients for homemade vegetable soup, which I will make tomorrow.
For the first time in two weeks, I followed the program without any cheating. I wasn't hungry at all. I felt like I did when I started WW last year. I went to the gym, and took a short walk too.
Only 5 more days this week.

This Week Is Over

The week is over--what conclusions can I draw? What were the consequences of my actions?
The weigh-in was good or not good. Let me present the facts. I did not attend my usual morning meeting, instead I went at 5:30. I didn't wear my weigh-in clothes. So, I did show a gain, but only a modest 0.8 pound. From what I've read, body weight increases as the day goes on. Normally I don't eat until after my morning meeting. So, I can't be too upset about the gain.
Actually I was glad I attended this meeting since I got a lot out of it. The theme was Columbus, and getting stuck on islands of weight loss trouble. And there is where I am. We had to write down what we could do to get ourselves going again. Let me share them.
My goals this week: blog about my plight every day. Follow the program. Go to the gym 3x this week. Make "no points" soup.
How did my week go?--fairly well. I avoided most of the traps that ensnared my in the previous weeks. I did let down somewhat over the weekend. I ate some slowchurn ice cream on Sat. night. I did enjoy it, even though I ate too much. I did eat my Whole Foods leftovers for Sunday lunch, which was a little on the heavy side.
What have I done right today--I walked, with a lot of energy. I covered 3+ miles in about 55 minutes. I followed the program--with an exception--my mother's caregiver gave me a piece of Filipino dessert, which I couldn't refuse. It was coconut, and rich and good. I didn't have a second helping.
So, there are 6 more days to go.

Another update

So, I have made it through 5 days of being on program. Yesterday, though I did stray a bit. We went to Whole Foods for the 5 and 5, five samples of wine and little sample of food to match. Then we bought dinner from the prepared food department. I decided to try some Indian food, actually very tasty, some fried plantains, delicious and a salad. I also had some cioppino, a tomatoey seafood soup. I was pretty stuffed, even though I didn't finish everything. I still have some lunch left over. So, now I have 2 days to go.

On a Roll--I hope

Yesterday I stayed on program--except for about 5-6 small chips at my mother's place. Today I had an early dentist appointment, so I had an peach and a milk for breakfast, and an apple and a Starbucks--non fat--no sugar--chai tisto for a snack. Lunch was on program too. I've logged in dinner already, so I should be good for the rest of the day.
Monday presents a problem--I've volunteered to sub at Oakton during my meeting time. I may have to go to an evening meeting, which won't be exactly the same as a morning one, as people weigh more in the evening as they do in the morning.
So, its 3 more days, one day at a time.

Today is Day 3

This is my daily disaster remediation update. Yesterday was somewhat successful. I booked everything in the journal, but I did eat some dry roasted nuts at my mother's apt. When I got to Oakton, there was some delicious bridge mix on the counter. It was the good kind, with semisweet chocolate over the nuts. I ate several pieces and enjoyed every morsel. So that was it for cheats.
Today, everything is booked, I went to the Botanic and did the prairie program for a group of 3rd graders. The weather was just about perfect, the kids had a good time. There is such a big difference between this program and textbook science. The kids are gathering data, measuring and recording soil and air temperatures. counting grasses and forbs and drawing conclusions from the data. They were doing real science and enjoying it.
My exercise today was walking around the prairie with the kids for about 2 hours. I was carrying a big supply bag, but that doesn't count for much. It was starting and stopping walking.
I'm going over to my mothers in a little while, but first I have to stop at the grocery store and get her a few things. No candy aisle for me today.
So 4 more days this week.

Progress

Today was a gym day, and then I book all my food for the day. So far, I am on plan. Only 5 more days to go this week.

Disaster

I may have hit rock bottom. Today was my WW meeting day, and the trend is not going in the right direction. I was up again--not much, but every little bit add up to a big gain.
This week I ate a bag of gumdrops, a bag of candy corn and a bag of carmels. Why did I do this? Am I eating because my mother is so sick, and I feel just terrible whenever I see her? Or am I eating because my old bad habits are coming back?
I have also been eating frozen nuts out of the freezer when I do the laundry.
Now, I haven't logged in any of this stuff in my food journal. The only reason I didn't gain more is that I exercised a lot last week.
So--what am I going to do? I did log in all the junk that I ate today. But I have 6 more days this week. I made it through Friday last week, journaling my food anyway. Saturday and Sunday were pretty much on program.
On the track that I am on now--I will be back where I started. Fat and unhappy.